Friday, April 24, 2015
6 weeks, 4 days
I have now officially made it the longest in a pregnancy without requiring an emergency ultrasound due to bleeding. First when we lost Reagan's twin, and with the boys because of severe pain and spotting. We have passed the first of our many hurdles. And I'm feeling good. Okay, that's a complete lie. I feel like crap. All I want to do is lie on the bathroom floor with a cold rag. Ugh.., nausea and "morning" aka all day sickness has hit with full force. Interesting how I don't remember much of the nausea with the boys. I remember it for sure with Reagan, but maybe the stress of everything else with the boys made me forget all about the nausea. How does one care for the kiddos while wanting to die all day? Hmm...haven't mastered that one just yet. And yet, in these days as we wait for the 8 week ultrasound, it's a huge blessing to feel so awful. There is no doubt in my mind that I am definitely pregnant. A little less intense nausea would be nice, but I'm sure if that was the case I would be struggling with doubts and freaking out that I wasn't feeling sick enough. So, I'm just going to be grateful for the horribleness that is "morning" sickness, grateful we've made it this far without any complications, and grateful I serve a God who doesn't give me what this doubting heart deserves.